Turbulent Flow

The first year after my relationship ended was pretty hard. Most of 2010 was spent just putting one foot in front of the other. Toward the end the ex and I finally had a legal separation agreement and I was able to start thinking about what my life should be beyond parenting, dog walking, and working.

I didn't write much, but 2011 was the year I found my post-divorce groove. As Portia started sleeping through the night and the permanent bags under my eyes slowly receded I looked for a life beyond bare survival. It wasn't always easy and I regret not writing more of it down, but I wasn't sure if I could write about the challenges without getting bitter about my ex and his decision to leave. I still struggle with that, despite knowing all along that breaking up was the best decision both for him and for me.

And with 2011 now behind me I can say that I'm feeling very much like my life is something to truly enjoy. Portia has grown from a baby into a hilarious toddler that constantly surprises me with the complexity and creativity of her thoughts. I could live on her hugs alone. I got incredibly lucky internet dating and met someone that seems to share my vision of what an enjoyable life looks like. Plus he's cute, smart and cooks. We've travelled together both with and without the kiddo and he's also served as encouragement to get back into my favourite activities. Last year I ran a 10k race, rock climbed (indoor and out), and broke out my snowboard for the first time since getting pregnant.

Life is feeling pretty good these days.